Day Twenty-Seven: The Silent Journey Begins

I’m at the little cabin/cottage now, got here late last night.  Cannot TELL you how nice it was to wake up to nothing but sunshine and birds.  No hubbub, no making sure somebody makes the school bus (although Jahn is doing a much better job of getting himself up and ready, now that he has an alarm clock and is raw), no wondering if it’s a work day, and if it isn’t, what am I supposed to be doing @ home.  Jeebus, it was nice!

I got into a bit of a crying fit last night, just before leaving home.  Had a real anxiety attack about Jason being upset with me for leaving — would he want me to come back?  Fortunately, he’s just the kind of wonderful man that I can cry in front of and he doesn’t fall apart or take it personally.  Also, he doesn’t mind if I have irrational fears and/or express them.  He just held me and told me that of course he would still be there and I’d be welcomed back with open arms.  It’s amazing how we American women are taught, somehow (because there sure isn’t a class or overt words to this affect) that we are responsible for everyone around us, their happiness, and for running the household; so much so, that we feel guilty taking time for ourselves.  But Jason is so wonderful, that he actually THANKED me for taking time for myself, and for doing what I need to do to take care of myself.  He is so  amazing that some days I almost can’t believe that I get to be with him.

So I went to bed late, after picking up 2 days of food and unpacking my backpack, and read myself to sleep.  I’m working on The Never Ending Story.  I started it last year in Virginia when we were on vacation, and never finished it.  I doubt I’ll finish it on just these 2 days and 3 nights, but we’ll see.

This morning I puttered around the cottage, drank my litre of water, and spent the whole day in bed, except for a 30-minute walk around the neighborhood.  As for “work”, I collected photos on-line from free stock photos for upcoming newsletters and e-zines.  The afternoon was dedicated to catching up on old email and investigating Karen Knowler’s Raw Teacher Program in much greater detail.  I think I may have mentioned it in an earlier post, but just in case I didn’t. my local co-op wants me to start teaching raw food “how to” classes!  Well, I want to make sure that I get it done right!!!  I’ve taught classes before, on reading Tarot and Oracle cards, on hair & makeup (I used to be a cosmetologist) and on finding your psychic center.  So I have a bit of an idea on how to fill and teach a class.  But I want to really make this work for a living, so I will eventually be taking the course.

The evening was reading and watching Food Matters again.  Got all my notes organized and categorized for my e-books and started making lists of what needs to be done first, second, third, etc. to make the books a reality.

Then it was off to bed.  I almost ate nothing today, which I guess makes sense, considering I didn’t move much.  Jay brought me by some coconut oil in the early evening/late afternoon as he and Jahn were on their way to see Star Trek.  Even though I wore gloves yesterday for all that gardening, my hands still got dried out, and nothing works better for dry hands than fresh coconut oil.  In my opinion, it’s a WAY better lip balm and hand cream.  Oh!  They also brought me a little heart-shaped glass bowl of cherries and strawberries (first of the season!), the dears.

Today’s menu was water for the morning, a banana and a nectarine (also the first of the season) for brunch, chocolate ganache for lunch, and the berries & cherries the boys brought for dinner (plus more ganache).

I stayed up late, LOVED it, and don’t care what time I wake up tomorrow.  I’m sure it will be to the Sun coming in the skylight again, with the lovely birds chirping that wakes me.  Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh …. I’m gonna do this again SOON!

Published in: on May 11, 2009 at 11:14 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Day Twenty-Six: Happy Mother’s Day – Gardening and Honey Bees!!!

Happy Mother’s Day to all you moms out there (and people like me who are semi-moms but resist the label).

This morning, Jason and I slept in (how delicious was THAT?!?), then we headed over to our friend’s house, Dave and Laurie’s, to pick some fresh, baby Red Russian kale.  Or so I thought.  In exchange for helping Laurie to “weed” her flower patch, I got to take all those “weeds” home with me.  And said “weeds” were said KALE!  In addition, she uprooted a rhubarb plant, a lovage plant, TONS of young oregano starts, baby angelica starts, lemon balm, lemon mint, orange mint and a horseradish plant!  All payment for taking her excess kale out!  And it only took me 5 minutes to help her.  Plus, we just bought a Sungold cherry tomato plant yesterday, and a friend gave us what we thought were 2 strawberry plants.  Turns out they were FOUR!

So Jason and I had our work cut out for us.  I planted or transplanted everything except the tomato plant while he mowed and weed-whacked the yard with Dave’s mower and weed-whacker.  A sweet little boy in our neighborhood named Cody came over and showed Jahn how to uproot dandelion plants.  The kid has been watching his dad, who manages the park we live in, and I tell you what, I’ve never seen a kid so little (I think he’s 5 or 6) who is so handy with a shovel!  I kept telling Jahn to watch Cody dig, because he knew exactly how to do it.  Went all the way around the plant, clockwise, over and over and over again, until it came right out, root and all.  We are so lucky to have so dang many dandelion plants in our yard and the surrounding fields that we have more than we can possibly eat, even if we ate just those, so we placed the uprooted ones from our rock path around the apple tree, mixed in with the grass clippings.  Jay said that when he had orange trees in Florida, they always put grass clippings around the base of the trees, and it was the very best compost.  Said it made for the sweetest, juiciest oranges ever.  Had other Floridians wondering why their fruit was so perfect!  Well, fertilize well and you get a strong plant with delectable fruit that can protect itself from pests and the like.

We also found some surprise dog “treats” in the yard (as in, some neighbor dog made a deposit in the middle of the lawn), but Jay just threw them in with Cody’s dandelions and the grass clippings.  I planted everything we got from Laurie in little planter boxes except for the kale.  Then I planted the strawberries.  Most of these will probably get permanent homes in the actual earth, but we only moved in in February, so we haven’t decided exactly where to do our Lasagna Gardening, yet.

Last, I planted the baby kale in the cinder blocks that go along the edge of the right side of the house (the back lawn is along the left side) and Cody, the handier-with-a-spade-than-me little guy, went through and weeded all the little plots of dirt and turned over the soil for me first, and I didn’t even have to ask him to!  He had a little metal shovel that Dave and Laurie gave Jahn, but Jahn was more interested in reading Calvin and Hobbes while sunning himself on the deck, so I figured, “Well, each can do what they like.  At least they aren’t fighting over who gets to use the shovel!”  So all I had to do, literally, was turn a bit of fertilizer into the earth with a large spoon, transplant my little kale babies, then water them!  Got a whole nice row going, too.  Hopefully next year they will keep us in green smoothies all season long and we won’t have to buy many greens!  We fed Cody an apple, and he tried mango for the first time.  Liked it quite well.  I told him that since he worked so hard, when our apple tree starts bearing fruit, he can come over and get some apples.

Oh!  I almost forgot!  The very BEST news of the day!!!  There is a huge raspberry farm right outside our backyard (I’ll take pics soon — and they let us pick all we want for free!) and I think they have their own honey beehives, because yesterday I saw 4 bees visiting our little apple tree (which is LADEN with blossoms) and today, there were SIX!  All at once!!!  With all the issues these poor little guys have been having, and with all the work that Jay and I are planning on putting into growing our own food, I gotta tell you, I have literally NEVER been so happy to see bees in my entire life!  I almost started crying!!  Jahn and Cody got scared, but I showed them how the bees were so busy they didn’t care about us.  I walked up and put my hand literally an inch away from 2 of them, and when they didn’t sting me, the boys were convinced that bees might not be so bad after all, and were more willing to listen to the good aspects of bees.  Eventually, they were standing in front of the tree, watching the bees do their work and cheering them on, dancing and chanting in unison, “Poll-in-ATE!  Poll-in-ATE!”  Pretty freakin’ cute!

So after all that gardening fun, poor Cody was sad to see us go, but we had to.  We went to my brother-in-law’s house to discuss cookbook layout (just wait til you see them!  He is a PRO!) and mull over logo ideas.  Things are rolling along smashingly in the design department, so we didn’t have to chat long.  Then it was all of us (my Jason, me, Jahn, my sister Beccy, her Jason, and their son, Ben) off to my mom and dad’s house to celebrate Mother’s Day.

We went to my mom’s house today and we gave her 2 tulips from our flower patch (they had mostly finished blooming already), an apple-spice cake that I made (pretty much my happy accident cake from a few days ago with marinated, minced apples in it), and some iris bulbs (purple, her favorite).  She also got a DVD about Alaska from my brother and his wife (my mom grew up in Sitka), a white geranium plant from my sister, her hubby and son, oh!  And a little crescent moon shaped crystal to hang in her window, also from my brother and his wife.  Jahn made me a very sweet little watercolor painting at school and it was accompanied by a letter that said the he loved me and was grateful that I make him raw treats.  It was very, very sweet.  It made me cry, then Jay cried, then everybody was crying, and Jahn rolled his eyes, and said, “Oh, brother!”  Funny kid.

We all had dinner there, and we were served a veritable feast of fruit salad (oranges, red grapes, bananas, watermelon, mango and something else — I think another melon), green salad (with all kinds of great stuff in it — radishes, red peppers, cucumbers, iceberg and Romaine lettuces, some baby kale that I brought from Laurie’s garden, oregano (also from Laurie’s garden) shredded carrots, celery, raw walnuts … and I think there were a few more things, but I don’t remember what they were).  I brought our raw dressing, nutritional yeast and flaxmeal for us to top the salads with.  There was also roasted chicken and 2 kinds of potato salad, but we didn’t partake of those (I’m the only raw foodist on my side of the family).  It was a great meal, and Jay and I were very excited that we all were so full afterward.  That was our first time eating nothing but raw around other people in a very long time.  We finished off most of the apple-spice cake, and everyone agreed, it was very reminiscent of the filling in apple newtons — like fig newtons, but spicier and apple-ier.

We didn’t really have any breakfast, just our 2 litres of water in the morning.  Strange how satisfying it is when you’re hydrated.  Your artificial hunger alarms just don’t go off the way they do when you eat cooked.  So we weren’t even hungry until about 4 p.m.!  Ok, we sampled a few greens in Laurie’s garden, but that was just 3 or 4 little leaves, pea shoots and the like.  I can’t believe how little we eat now!  If you’d told me even a month ago that I’d be this happy raw, I’d probably have slapped you.  Ok, maybe not that.  But I would’ve definitely recommended counseling.  ;)

I did have a bit of chocolate before we left, but just one bite of ganache – just so I could say I’ve been doing the raw cacao for 30 days with every meal.  But we’re down to one meal a day, and one or very occasionally 2 snacks (a handful of berries, a half a mango, a handful of sprouted nuts, etc.), so I’m having a hard time being hungry enough to eat any cacao at all.  There’s a surprising twist!  Not hungry enough to eat CHOCOLATE???  But there you have it.  I’d heard of other raw foodists experiencing this lack of hunger, and being able to work really hard for hours on end with no food, but until you experience it for yourself, it just doesn’t seem believable.  I think that’s because there are so many social, psychological and emotional things tied in with cooked food.

But that’s a subject for another day and another post.  I’m off to pack and go on my little silent mini vacation.  I’ll still post while I’m gone, though.  No talking needed for that.  Cheerio!

Day Eighteen: A Milestone Day!

Well I’ve finally done it.  The longest I’ve ever been raw (up until today) was 17 days.  And here I am, on day eighteen, and I know that cooked food is behind me.  I mean REALLY behind me!!!  Like I said to Jahn at the beginning of this journey:  “There’s nothing cooked that we can’t make a raw version of.  And if we can make it raw, why would we ever eat it cooked?!?”

So to celebrate, he and I did some creative work today in the kitchen to invent what he calls pepperawni (a raw version of pepperoni).  We sliced up some Italian squash (which looks and tastes a lot like just a mini zucchini) and we slathered them with a mixture of a tomato concoction we came up with which was:

  • wheat-free tahini
  • sun-dried tomatoes
  • garlic powder
  • onion powder
  • water
  • pink Himalayan salt
  • black pepper

We put that all together in the Vitamix, put it on high and kept smashing it down to get the stuff to make a creamy paste.  After the slices were slathered and placed on a dehydrator tray, we took several cups of raw, soaked pistachios, walnuts and almonds and mixed them up in the tomato mixture as well.  I’d love to be able to buy Jahn the marinara nuts we found yesterday all the time, but that doesn’t fit into our budget except as a treat, for now.  Besides, it’s fun to try to get a recipe at home to taste like the stuff you found at the store.  And now the house is starting to smell like a freakin’ pizza parlor!  Poor kid is having a hard time waiting the few days that it takes to dry the nuts back out.  But at least the squash ones will be ready by the end of tomorrow.

So for breakfast I had a frozen chocolate-dipped banana (oh, tasted just like my memories of Disneyland as a kid, when I first had them).  Is being raw wonderful, or WHAT?!?  The longer I do this, the happier I am.  And I’m so happy that Jason and Jahn are so happy, too.  For the first time in any of our memories, we are truly, and I mean TRULY satisfied when we are done eating.  We never overeat anymore, I don’t have to monitor how many sweets Jahn gets, because they are all completely safe and don’t give him a sugar rush (and his behavior and memory have gone off the charts, in the positive direction) the crazy cravings that made me obsess over foods and make horrible, malnutritive choices are gone.  I feel … I feel free!  I feel like I’ve been enslaved by “food” for so long, and now that I’m eating REAL food and my addiction is FINALLY broken, I am alive, happy, getting healthy, and the world is my oyster (or some non-animal equivalent)  ;)

Lunch was a smallish salad and some chocolate sauce (not on it, of course), and dinner was blackberries again, but I tried some dipped in chocolate — an EXCELLENT combination!  I’m really looking forward to tomorrow, as I have the house to myself and a new shipment of cacao paste and butter to start my next round of candies with!  Can’t wait!  :)

Published in: on May 2, 2009 at 10:00 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Day Sixteen – Tried a New Cracker, and Shift Happening

No, it’s not a chocolate cracker.  Wouldn’t THAT be a fun idea, though?  (Note to self — see if that could work.) I added our carrot pulp from last evening’s juice (Jay was really craving some carrot juice) and added it to the crackers to see if it would make them taste better.  Not nearly as heavy as just plain flax and nuts, and much more the consistency of bread than a cracker.  Pretty good, but still too heavy and plain.  I think I need to add something like lemon or lime juice or apple cider vinegar to give them some zip.  I can’t keep adding salt and spices forever.

So I tried to make some peanuts with nutritional yeast last night, and I put Herby, lemon pepper and olive oil on them, but it was still a nutty nightmare.  Don’t get me wrong.  They were DELICIOUS, it’s just that even just a small amount (like 15 nuts) gave me the same feeling as eating cooked meat because they weren’t sprouted, and BONUS — since peanuts are a legume and not really a nut, I got some pretty intense gas out of the deal.  Fortunately though, they passed through me pretty quickly, so no real harm there.  I’m off the unsprouted stuff anyway (this is just sort of a little note I forgot to put in last night).

Breakfast was a wonderful mixture of chopped strawberries and bananas.  They were so good I couldn’t bring myself to put the cacao syrup on them that I made for them.  I ate that separately (well, I drank it actually) and I have to say, it was one of the most satisfying, happiness-inducing meals I’ve had in years.  I’m just still so happy after Karen’s call yesterday, I can’t seem to touch the ground!  Everything I eat seems to contribute more and more and more to my happiness!!!

Helped a friend, Dave, with his site today, ShiftHappening.org, which I’m doing the advertising for, and he’s going to have me contribute to the site by writing for the raw food page on the site under Innovative Nutrition!  Very exciting!  I did a presentation for the other 3 people working on the site and was able to incorporate not just the affiliates we’ll be working with, but also a bit of Karen’s information that I learned yesterday.  All were quite impressed with my work (and hers).  Yay!

Even though I wasn’t home pretty much all day (from 9:30 a.m. to 9 p.m.), I was well-prepared, and my hunger is starting to subside, now that have been doing this awhile.  Had my usual chocolate-instead-of-coffee shake this morning, and lunch was a salad with mixed baby greens, vinaigrette (had to use balsamic, no raw available at Dave’s).  Dinner was a pear.  That’s it.  No seriously.  And I was FULL!!!  Weird.  I had a piece of fudge and some left-over shake somewhere in there, but I don’t know exactly where.  I didn’t look at a clock all that much today.

So it was another jam-packed-but-fun day today, and I’m quite tired now that we’re at the end of it.  Ready for bed and to have a lovely day off tomorrow!

Published in: on April 30, 2009 at 3:09 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Day Fifteen: Karen Knowler’s EXCELLENT Teleclass

Man, if you have not ever heard of Karen Knowler, or have never looked into her stuff, please do so at your earliest convenience!  I am TOTALLY going to start taking her classes and home-study courses to make sure that I get my raw company off the ground right.  She is AMAZING!!!  She had a call today about starting your own on-line raw business, and I was pleased to see how many things I’ve been doing right as I prepare to launch Go Raw, Not Crazy … but I was even MORE excited to find out the top 11 things that on-line entrepreneurs do wrong, so that now I can build a game plan for how to avoid them.  Check her out.  Great recipes.  Easy-to-understand videos, the cutest accent THAT side of the Atlantic, and just an all-around nice gal.  Can’t WAIT to get more info from her.  Oh!  And did I mention that the teleclass (75 minutes long) was FREE?  Yeah.  She’s just wonderful!  I’ve gotten a great taste and can’t wait for more.

Dietarily, not a really exciting day.  Ate up the rest of the raw crackers and pesto, even though it had the unsprouted nuts, but kept it to a minimum (didn’t want to waste the food — I mean, at least it tasted good!)  Breakfast was chocolate pudding (young Thai coconut, but almost none of the water), banana, cacao, maca and agave.  YUM!!!  Lunch was the crackers and pesto mentioned above, a chocolate-cinnamon piece of candy and lemonade (lemon, agave, water).  Then dinner was bananas with chocolate syrup.

I spent most of the evening taking notes and relistening to Karen’s amazing call.  Then I wrote the outline for FOUR, count them F-O-U-R ebooks that I will be giving away for free when the site launches.  Great ideas I had for helping people start raw and stay that way.

How in the HELL did I ever live any other way?  I truly can’t believe it.  I am so excited today about the prospects for my new company, I’m about ready to pop!  Have as marvelous a day as I had (or better!)

Published in: on April 29, 2009 at 9:11 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Day Fourteen – Weigh-In #2, I Stop Going Nuts, and A Sauna Makes it All MUCH Better!

So after such a cruddy feeling 24 hours of lethargy yesterday, I decided to take matters into my own hands.  Doubled down on the chocolate, as I realized a few things.  Well let me back up.

First, it was weigh-in time again today, and although I lost about 8.5 pounds last week, I only lost 1.5 this week.  So I’m at 219, which is excellent, but not the kind of weight loss I wanted.  But I can tell you EXACTLY why my weight loss was so little.  I gave in this week to so many cravings, and tried to make their raw equivalents, and that meant LOTS of nuts!!!  Too oily, too heavy, too acidic and not sprouted.  I was lazy, plus I was getting a little tired of cacao, so I wanted a lot more savory things.  I can’t say anything as harsh as “I paid the price for it”, because everything was still raw, but it  certainly didn’t contribute to my weight loss or energy reserves.  Oh!  I also had raw cheese (actual dairy cheese) on my seed crackers, so my ankles started to hurt again.  I never realized how adversely dairy affects me.  No more now.  No cheese, milk or yogurt.  Just doesn’t agree with me.  I actually expressed to Jason that I felt like I was back on cooked food;  with all the pain, the drowsiness, the clouded thought.

So I got my lethargic butt to the gym today and because I felt so dizzy from detox and overly-heavy unsprouted nuts.  I didn’t chance an actual workout (didn’t wanna fall off a machine).  So instead I did lots of stretching for about an hour, hand weights on the floor, then took a 45 minute dry sauna (came out 3 times to rinse off in cool water).  I came out of the gym feeling MUCH better, with clearer vision, more energy and the knowledge and sense that I had sweated some of the sludge out.  Later in the evening, Jahn and I went for a 1.6 mile walk with little bits of running thrown in here and there.  I can’t believe how much better I feel!

I think that’s a mistake lots of people going raw make, especially during detox:  they don’t incorporate exercise and sweating.  Jay has told me for over 2 years how important those are, and while I did them sporadically, I’m ready to incorporate them for a minimum of 3 days a week, preferably 5 or 6.  I really am feeling the value of them, now.

Also, I’m hitting the superfoods and cacao much more in the future.  I really felt a sloppy energy this week from eating less chocolate with each meal.  My moods weren’t as good either.  I’m going to incorporate more green smoothies, too for bone mineralization, a full feeling and the all-important chlorophyll.

I can see how people gain weight with raw.  Nuts, nuts, nuts and oils.  I’m such a little fruit bat, it amazes me.  When I was a kid, I remember wanting oranges more than cake or candy, so I guess it makes sense that these are the foods I do best on.  This is how I’m meant to eat, and it feels so great to be getting back to it.  : )

So what did I eat today?  (Let’s get to the good stuff).  I had a large chocolate drink of bananas, water, cacao, mesquite and maca.  No coconuts in the house today.  It wasn’t as good as my usual shake, but it was still really good.  VERY energizing, because I put in extra maca and cacao today (which made the drink too bitter, needed just a bit of agave).  For lunch I had what little was left of my huge banana cacao drink,  just 2 small seed/flax crackers with lots of pesto, as I made some last night, and a small salad of spinach, nutritional yeast and my apple cider vinaigrette.  Dinner was avocado with Herby and a few spoonfuls of chocolate syrup.  And no more un-sprouted nuts.  Check out what Elaina Love has to say about nuts and sprouting on YouTube here.  It’s GREAT information about all sorts of nuts, which to soak, which to sprout and why.

So I really feel like I’m back on track and ready to seriously get back into this.  No excuses this coming week for not exercising, sweating, eating chocolate or anything else that I know is good for me.  WAY less nuts and seeds, and only if sprouted from now on!.

Published in: on April 28, 2009 at 10:20 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Day Nine: Food Matters and Quilt Giveaway (to help my dad)

Just found a GREAT trailer for a movie called Food Matters.  You can watch it on-line or buy it on their site.  UNBELIEVABLE!!!  And so cool that David Wolfe is in it talking about how you are what you eat!

Not much time to blog today, it’s late and I’ve got a yard sale to get ready for on Saturday.  So let’s get to it.  Breakfast was a green smoothie today with spinach, banana, mango, strawberries cinnamon and water.  Not my best work, as I was trying to use up some older produce while it was still good.  But a good start to the day.  Oh!  And I had a piece of the fudge that I made yesterday.  Took 3 pieces to my dad and he promptly ate one with zeal!  So glad I’m helping his heart while I give him joy.

Lunch was a salad with the usual fixin’s, a bit more fudge and some trail mix.

Dinner was … I think I just sort of grazed … a banana, a mango, and avocado, and the last of the fudge.  Oh!  And I had LOTS of water today.  Jason and I both noticed how we are starting to feel dehydrated, and so we are pushing ourselves to drink more water.

Ok, it’s late and I’m ready for bed.  I noticed that having cacao after 6 p.m. really made it hard to get to sleep, so I’ve stopped having it so late.  Live & learn.  Til tomorrow!

Published in: on April 24, 2009 at 6:08 am  Leave a Comment  
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Day Six: Have I Been Doing This For Almost a WEEK Already?

Ok, so don’t hate me, but this is actually feeling pretty easy!  Doing raw, I mean.  And it’s NEVER felt easy before.  I don’t know what made me decide to do only chocolate for 30 days (and obviously, I’ve added to that out of necessity), but something is clicking this time that never has before.  I’ve been trying to go raw for over 2 years, and it’s never stuck.  Maybe it just took me that long to transition, maybe I needed the education base and it took that long to get it.  Maybe I needed to get that “magic diet” I’ve always wanted, but never really believed I could have.  Or did I?  I didn’t give up on it, so some part of me must have intuitively known that chocolate was good for me, I just hadn’t looked enough to find the right kind.  Maybe I’ve only been able to do it twice for 2 weeks at a time in the past because I wasn’t getting superfoods often enough and overemphasized the greens.  Or maybe it is just time, so I’m simply ready.  I can’t say for sure.  But there is a calmness now that’s never been there before.  Like that guy I saw on We Like It Raw talking about letting go of seeking.  That really hit me in a profound way, and I haven’t had the need to look for perfection in my diet anymore since I saw that video.  It’s like somebody else said it was ok to stop seeking perfection, and even though he wasn’t giving me permission to eat Volcano Tacos, I just felt like his words helped me give myself permission to do so.  But once I gave myself that permission, poof!  Most of the desire for them went away.

What’s I find most interesting is that we’re all ready at the same time (everyone in my household) to finally BE raw, and not just try again to GO raw.  I’ve just finished day 6, Jahn has finished day 4 and Jason has finished day 3.  For some reason, within days of each other, we’re all just makin’ the leap, and it really doesn’t seem that hard.  And it’s not like we have less access to the old foodstuffs, or like we suddenly don’t want them — it just sort of seems gone from our consciousness, in a way, and this way of eating now suddenly seems normal, easy and preferable.

I had this conversation with Jahn recently (after we went on the picnic on Saturday at the bird festival), and we were talking about our cravings for peanut butter and jelly sandwiches at picnics and for pizza at parties.  I said to him, “So here’s the deal:  there’s nothing cooked that we can’t make a raw version of, if we put our minds to it.  We’ve already made pizza and peanut butter, and I think I can figure out jelly with a good freezer jam recipe.  So,  if we can have a raw version of it, WHY would we eat the cooked one???”  And I could see the light come on in his mind and his eyes as he TOTALY got it and said, “YEAH!”

It’s almost like we tripped and fell into it, or at least that’s how it seems now, from this side of things.  It’s a beautiful thing, and we are all requiring just a few hours of sleep each night now, with a nap here or there.  Jahn got a cold and it was gone in 24 hours.  The stresses and situations of life are not much changed, but we have.  And it’s so nice.  I don’t know if I’m just rambling, but it just feels so different now.  And not in a trying or striving or attempting kind of way.  There’s just a state of being that is so calm now, and Jason noticed and conveyed to me last night that time seems to be slowing down so much.  We are getting more done in a day, or at least it seems that way.  Is this making any sense?

My friend Michael is here and I just read the above paragraphs to him to see if they made any sense whatsoever, and he said that yes they does make perfect sense, so they it seems weird to you, then we can blame him.  ;o)  J/K  Love you Miko!

So I started the day with our chocolate shake/milk this morning that we’ve had most mornings, then I spent the day taking Miko to different stores for produce as he is working on going raw, too.  He’ll be staying at our place tonight, and I fed him salad with a new strawberry vinaigrette recipe that I came up with on the spot.  Jahn made him banana slices with chocolate and strawberry sauces on them for dessert (which he loves to call annunaki towers) , and they were both thrilled with it.

So let’s have the rundown:  breakfast was a chocolate shake, lunch was an avocado and a mango because I was on the road and it took MUCH longer than I thought it would to get home (errands kept coming up — one of those days, dontcha know), and for dinner it was, of course, salad, and then a piece of chocolate candy and annunaki towers for dessert.  Oh!  I made Miko a chocolate shake as he’s trying to get more recipes to help him stay raw, so I had a second one as an afternoon snack.

All in all, even though today was a busy day and I would have called it stress-filled in the past, now it just seems like an unusually busy day.  And staying raw was easy.  The Taco Bell sign wasn’t even tempting today.  I’m really starting to FEEL different, and my false body is slipping away, finally giving way to my REAL body!

I’m gonna go work on my books now, and tune in tomorrow for my first weigh-in.  I can feel a difference in my body already, we’ll see what the scale says.

Last, here are a few pics of me on Christmas Day, 2008.  Just to give you an idea of where I started with raw at approximately 240 pounds (as I was over 300 pounds at my heaviest, but would never consent to pictures at that weight).

Me giving Jason an "I Love You" hand sign

Me giving Jason an "I Love You" hand sign

Me smiling with glee at getting the Obama calendar I asked for!

Me smiling with glee at getting the Obama calendar I asked for!

So there, now you can at least see what I look like “before”.  I will post more pics at the end of the month.

Day Five: Let the Cleansing Begin!

Good GRIEF!  I know that one always goes through detox when going raw, but this is ridiculous!  I woke up this morning, and my bowels were competeing with every other part of my body for the “Who can release the most” award.  I went 3 times in under 1/2 an hour!  And all afternoon, it was my bladder in the lead.  But I’m 8 pounds lighter in only my 1st 5 days, so I’m off to a freakin’ good start!  :)   I say good riddance to the weight — as Nathalia Rose says, “waste = weight”.  Let’s get all the crud OUT!

Breakfast was a mango with chocolate, then to the gym for a workout, sauna and lots of stretching.  Let me tell you, while detoxing, there is NO substitute for moving your body and making yourself to sweat in a sauna (followed by a cool, refreshing shower!)  Moves those toxins RIGHT on through and you feel so refreshed and cool-headed afterward!

Went and looked for wild cattails before the workout, and met a nice lady at the gym named Peggy (who told me I should be writing a book about raw food with recipes) ;) then stopped by Kent’s Garden & Nursery to look at Frost peach trees and blueberry bushes.  We’re gonna start growing some of our own food this year!  We’ve already got an apple tree on the property that came with the house.  All we have to do is fence off the remainder of the yard and we’ll be able to keep the deer and other animals out of the garden.  Plus, a little diatomaceous earth, and we’ll be able to keep the buggies off naturally.
So back to today (I do tend to get off on tangents, don’t I?)  I’m really starting to lose my appetite during the day.  All that chocolate is really keeping me full, plus the fat in the mangos is really helping.  I’ll be making frozen bananas tonight (on a stick) for dipping and rolling in chopped pecans tomorrow … who says you can’t have your favorite Disneyland food as an adult and have it raw?  Remember those frozen, chocolate-dipped bananas on a stick?  First place I tried that as a kid was Disneyland.  I thought I’d died and gone to heaven.
Jason and I had late-evening cravings – he for raw tahini and I for avocados – so we went to the grocery store and got avocados, more young thai coconuts, bananas, a large mango, celery and something else I can’t remember.  Then we went to Terra Organica and got his Tahini as well as something called Rawmesan by Gopal’s Health Foods — and it is AMAZING stuff!  It’s unbelievable how tasty raw walnuts, sunflower seeds, nutritional yeast and celtic sea salt can taste in the right combination!
But this isn’t about chocolate, is it.  Alas, I am rambling, yet again!  I’m just so thrilled to be finding all these fun, new things to eat.  If I’d've known raw could be this much fun, I’d've done it years ago.  I didn’t really have lunch, as I’m not too hungry during the day very often.  I think I had maybe a banana or 2, of course dipped in chocolate sauce.  For dinner, I had about a quarter of an avocado with Herby on it (the Rawmesan wasn’t too good on it, in my opinion – not a great complementary taste), and a chocolate bar I made.  Then I had a bit of the most bizarre food I’ve ever eaten.  Jason mixed raw tahini with Nama Shoyu raw soy sauce, added some water, and dipped green cabbage in it.  Now, I hate cabbage.  No, no, you don’t understand.  I HATE cabbage!  Cooked, raw, dudn’t matter.  HATE the stuff.  And this tahini mixture is fairly repugnant on its own.  Bitter, slick and just all-around odd.  All that being so stated, when you dip the cabbage IN the tahini sauce he made, something frickin’ MAGICAL happens.  This bizarre, nutty, sweet, almost meaty and fruity flavor with several layers … it just blossoms in your mouth!  I can’t explain it.  I’ve never had anything like it in my life, but it’s farking fanTAStic!!!  In fact, I want some more right now!  But how to incorporate chocolate into it ….  Maybe sometimes you just can’t eat chocolate on everything.  ;)
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